Thursday, December 01, 2005
{ 7:28 AM }
my heart just suddenly seemed so pain..i dont know why. but..it's pain. you know the time when u feel xin1 suan1? i think it's that feeling. just rather upset about somethings..but it made me understand somethings better. the good people. and how i sohuld be a good gal. went for guzheng xam just now. hahaas. dad, me n my idiotic maid carried it there. not realli lar..as in we called a taxi and transported it there. haiz..so heavy lar..then so tall sumore. n mom made us go there super early. i was like there without anyone there yet. so early. n the office was closed. nvm. i didnt know about the holding room at first. where u cn start practising yr instrument b4 the xam. so i was there, thnx to some teacher(: i'm glad. at least got time to practise. not like piano like that. so i stayed there for quite a long time. then all the ppl there esp the boys all wear until like dunt know wat like tat..wat weatern suit. so diff frm me.there was this teacher who was nice. n she helped me tune the guzheng, cuz i dunt know how to tune mahz..beginner only lehs. then got one string got probie..luckily i brought it there also. but she said the others oso got probie..but luckily dunt nid change, cuz i didnt bring mahz. ok..sat there n practise until lao shi came. n i finalli mastered that practise song which only last min i start to learn. i'm proud of myself. in one and a half day learn until that speed..quite ok lar. n lao shi helped me tune again. she changed that spoilt sting and told me to relax...n even if i dont do well, dunt blame myself cuz i've done my best and improved a lot since the day she taught me. frm a song that didnt look like a song, to wat it is now..considered vv good le..onli in two months mahz..n i was like thinking, why didnt i change my teacher earlier, so i can be more well prepared. haiz..bad luck, or rather, hard luck. then she needed to leave as she's unwell n nid to see a doc..n still haf lesson at 4, so she left me in the care of her senior who is the one incharge of calling the candidates in. ok..lao shi's senior was nice too..toked to me n stuffs. helped me tune the guzheng again n carried it in for me. so nice..i feel a bit bad not helping at all..when we entered, i saw the xaminer sitted there. she looked fierce and sturn. scary. a woman. so lao shi's senior put tt thingy down n made sure it didnt shake. i sat down and looked at the xaminer..she nodded her head and i started. n when i was playing, i found out the guzheng was like shaking. o mien..suay lar..but i continued and it went smoothli. even though i played some parts wrongli, i acted as if nth happened and continue, but the song was a bit..hmm..dunt know wat to say, but i tot it was a failure cuz i kip making mistake. when i played the practise song i was all calm, but when i started on the song, i was all sweaty and clammy. and my hands were so cold, it couldnt realli move. haiz..but it ended successfulli(: with my perseverance and will. hhaaas. after it ended, we wetn to buy roti prata, czu i'm craving for it. yea..n took the same taxi home. the taxi uncle was good also. came home n slp. until vv late..n my maid is so bad. hate her lar..idiotic woman. i mean..how cn u hear when u r slping? rubbish. i shant swear too much. learn to be tame..n not haf mode swings..cannot.